The Color of Sound

 

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts.

It’s been a while since I actually showcased my writing, so I thought I’d spend a little time doing that this post. Like many of us, I love writing and creating. Marketing? Not so much. In any event, it has to be done in order to compete with the ocean of books that are floating out there.

I can’t recall the chicken or the egg part of the story, but I do recall thinking about writing a tale that might offer an explanation as to why loved ones might choose to end their lives. Sadly, suicide has touched us all. But, what if it wasn’t them…?

I came up with a teenage girl, doing her best despite terrible circumstances, suddenly gaining a superpower.

The voice that Jewel Foster hears in her head is not her own. It tells her terrible things and has since she can remember. It’s a miracle she’s made it to sixteen.

One extraordinary night changes everything.

There are scales over the eyes of mortals to prevent them from seeing the immortal. Jewel loses these and can now see the angels and demons that surround and interfere. Neither side is pleased that she can see them.

Now, both sides in a spiritual war press against her; a war that has raged since the Devil was cast out of Heaven.

Last week, one wanted her dead.

This week, they all do.

In the story, Jewel is being raised by a single mother in a small town. Mine, in fact. I keep using Kingsburg, California. She has one friend, wears the usual black, keeps her head down, and tries her best not to antagonize the voice in her head because she knows how terrible he can be. It isn’t Christian Fiction. This is R-rated material.

One night, she abruptly sits up in bed while the voice is on a rant and strikes her head hard against something. She doesn’t know what. All she knows is her glasses are broken because she heard them break. That is until she sees them sitting safely on her nightstand.

She picks them up carefully and puts them back on.

They’re not broken. But I heard them! What broke?

She looks back to the vinyl flooring and then widens her search area: the edge of the bed below her, the nightstand to her immediate left with its long-manicured wood legs, her thick mauve curtains that nearly touch the floor and a pair of the ugliest little feet she has ever seen poking out from behind them. They appear to be rotting with open sores.

What?

They look like they belong to a corpse that has been horribly burned in a house fire. They smell like it, too. Like rotten eggs. They do not move.

She covers her nose and follows the feet upward with her eyes. There’s a figure there partially hidden by the curtain panel. There’s a hand there holding onto the fabric, as if for dear life.

Her body tenses. She is seeing something and not seeing it at the same time, as if an out of body experience.

My God!

Her body goes rigid. Only her eyes seem to be able to move.

Blackened hands begat mangled fingers. Whatever it is, a right hand clutches the curtain. She can see the fine details where claw-like fingers almost pierce the fabric.

A terrified face peeks out now from behind the panel and looks at her. It is twisted in revulsion. The left hand holds the forehead, just as she did moments before. The nose that should have been centered there is missing. Only the stump of it remains. There is a gaping hole, thankfully draped in shadow. Red eyes stare back at her. Mucus leaks out of one like tears.

Jewel lowers her hand to her mouth. She needs to scream. She can already almost hear herself unleashing it. It will wake Layla as well as neighbors on either side of them.

Probably neighbors across the alley as well.

It will rattle the windows and threaten to break any delicate glass in the vicinity.

Only she doesn’t scream.

Something not of this world beats her to it.

As the story progresses, Jewel meets another student at school who also has a demon hounding him, making him think that it’s him. She tells herself to stay out of it but finds that she can’t do that.

Jewel stop, she thinks, but ignores it.

“No, they won’t,” she says, her voice strong. “And I’ll tell you why. There’s a voice telling you these things. I’ve heard it. I had one, too.”

She watches him tense.

“It told me horrible things to keep me down,” she continues. “It’s gone now, but you have one. It’s holding you back. ‘How in the world did you ever make Captain,’ it said to you. ‘I’m thinking you really should eat your dad’s Winchester.’ I forget what model number.”

He sits back, too. His face twists, then softens again. “1300,” he says. “It’s in my closet now. He hasn’t missed it. How did you…?”

“I told you how,” she replies and quickly leans forward. Before she can stop herself she finds that she has taken his hands into hers. His eyes look down at them. She tugs them one good time and he looks back up at her. “Don’t do it! ‘Only hurts for a second’ is bullshit! It hurts everyone who knows you forever!”

The bell rings. Break is over.

More blood drains from his face, if that is possible. His face twists up again and he quickly yanks his hands free and stands.

I told you, the more rational side of her brain thinks, sadly. She sits back away from the table.

Football Player says nothing further. He spins and storms away.

She stares straight ahead and tenses again. If Football Player regrets walking away or looks back at her even once, she never sees it.

The thing that has been torturing him was standing behind him the entire time. He stands near the bench seat that Football Player has just vacated. The thing glares at her.

“Pretty proud of yourself, aren’t you?” he growls.

Jewel only stares.

“This isn’t over, you know,” he says. “He doesn’t believe you… I won’t let him.”

Jewel exhales loudly. “Yes, he does.”

The thing just shakes his head.

Jewel unexpectedly smiles. “Yes, he does,” she says. She feels strangely empowered. “He’s going to put that gun right back where he found it. He’s going to do that today!”

The thing smiles back at her. It’s the same toothy grin he gave her in class. “No, he isn’t,” The thing says, still shaking his creepy head, dramatically. He slowly backs away. “Fuck you, Jewel, but he isn’t going to do that.”

“Fuck you right back, you little barbecued bastard.”

The thing laughs.

She meets her guardian angel who cautions her to stay out of it, but she can’t do that. She physically interacts with some minor demons, but he warns her that it’s easy when they’re small.

“So, you are the girl?” she says. Her voice is low, but strong. “I have heard so much about you.” She closes her mouth and nods very methodically. “So very much.”

She sits up, but her grip never wavers. It’s like a vise.

“None of us have ever heard of such a thing,” she continues. “It’s quite extraordinary.”

Jewel searches frantically about her, but there is no escape.

The demon furrows her brow. There are no eyebrows there. Only rough skin that perhaps once held hair. Jewel sees the skin pull up into deep ravines there below her forehead.

“Are you looking for your angel?” she asks, then nods sarcastically with a cruel smile. “Of course you are.” She leans in close once again. “He’s not here. Hoo! Just us.” She grins and another glob of spittle breaks free and falls onto her. “What shall we talk about?”

Jewel just stares, eyes bulging.

“What’s this? Nothing to say? But you have been so brash and ballsy these few days, and now nothing? I am quite surprised. I expected more.”

The demon stiffens and sits up as if momentarily distracted. She looks off as if listening for something. She stares at one wall and then turns toward another. Still, she continues to dig incrementally into Jewel’s face. She releases pressure then applies it again, like a cat that has caught its dinner and wants to play with it first. Jewel can do nothing but watch. The demon’s face, seemingly content that a bigger cat hasn’t come to claim her meal for herself, turns back to Jewel.

“Sad,” she says, finally. “I had hoped for more. I tell you what we’ll do,” she begins. “I will remove my hand from your face. You will say nothing unless I tell you. Understand?”

Jewel nods slowly.

“Good, but here’s the thing: If you disobey me, I will rip out your fucking tongue and eat it right in front of you. Do you hear me, child? Right in front of you.”

Lastly, since the story takes place in the same town as my edgy vampire series, could the two worlds collide…? Yes, I think they will. Throughout the story the vampire myth gets broached a time or two. Not enough to catch your attention, but just enough that the reader only remembers when Jewel makes a surprise meet/cute with a character from that series. Yes, The Color of Sound is a standalone book, but also actually Dance on Fire book 3.5. She will join the team in what I’m writing next: Dance on Fire 4.

It does have a tentative title other than simply number 4, but I’m keeping that close to the vest for now.

We’ll talk soon.

An Introduction: Rapid Fire Style

Hello, Fire Enthusiasts.

First things first: Fire Enthusiasts? What the hell does that mean? Yeah, it’s a phrase that I started using back in the day, and I just kept it. Dance on Fire was my first novel, and I was gearing up to take over the world with it. That was about sixteen years ago. Did I take over the world? Nope. Still trying.

Okay, you probably didn’t ask for this, so let’s try and keep it fun and short. Rapid fire, anyone?

• Why do I write spooky stuff? Good question. I don’t really recall enjoying reading until I discovered scary books in my teens. I have been gobbling them up more or less ever since. I rarely watch horror movies these days. My wife certainly isn’t going to sit down to watch anything scary with me, so on those rare occasions I’d be relegated to watching on my trusty Mac with headphones on. I do have a framed The Exorcist poster in my library/office (mostly hidden behind the door), but you’re more likely to catch me watching An Affair to Remember or Notting Hill.

• I'm not that guy who wears black all the time. I do not wear black except for a couple of weeks in spring, a couple of weeks in fall or if I’m hiding beneath air conditioning thanks to our central California heat.

• I have all of those 70’s and 80’s heavy metal albums, but can also be caught rocking the Bee Gees, Manilow or Gene Pitney. Did you say “rocking” Manilow just now…?

• Favorite book? Something from Uncle Stevie, Slade or Barker, right? Nope. I previously mentioned that honor goes to Pat Conroy and his brilliant book, Beach Music.

• I’m a sucker for a good, haunted house story, but I go to church most every Sunday hoping never to meet one. No Ouija Boards in my home. Nope.

• Did you find a spider? I’m your guy. Snake? You’re on your own.

• I bet you can't wait until Halloween? Nope. I'm all Christmas. I start decorating as soon as my beloved Cowboys lose on Thanksgiving Day (hopefully not), and then keep it up until New Year's Day.

• Although I often chop and dismember characters in my fiction, my day job is protecting employees’ fingers and toes as their Safety Manager. I work for the World’s Favorite Raisin which is headquartered in my hometown. 

• I finally gave up on world building with my first novel. I decided if Uncle Stevie could use Bangor, Maine all of the time, why couldn’t I just use Kingsburg, Ca. You will find it on a map just south of Fresno. The actor Slim Pickens and athletes Rafer and Jimmie Johnson were from here. It’s also apparently a very haunted locale. I’m really going to have to explain that one of these days. grins

• I like my Starbucks Vanilla Lattes on those rare occasions, but usually just have coffee at home with French Vanilla-flavored creamer. On the road, I will have it however you are serving it.

• Concerts? I’ve seen many, including Matchbox Twenty, Def Leppard, Poison, Sammy Hagar, John Mayer, Pink, Scorpions, Van Halen and Kiss multiple times. Prince was probably the best, although Neil Diamond and James Taylor were also really good shows. As you can see I managed to get into a picture with Van Halen on the Balance Tour. That's me kneeling in the front.

• Broadway shows. We have season passes in Fresno for the touring versions. I haven’t been disappointed by one yet. We did see The Phantom of the Opera on Broadway once while visiting New York City. We saw Hamilton at the Pantages Theater in LA. I’ve seen Jesus Christ Superstar three times, including the anniversary one that had both Ted Neeley and Carl Anderson from the film. My favorite show is Wicked. “Defying Gravity” gets me every time. Some horror writer, huh?

• Meet anyone famous? I met Duff Goldman. He was visiting our company and putting on a bit of a cooking show for us. I paid to have Sam J. Jones sign my copy of Flash Gordon once, but we happily chatted for about 10-15 minutes since it was the end of his day and a bit slow. He was very cool to me and my oldest son, and when he heard I was in Safety, he asked me a lot of questions.

• Traveling? Why Yes. Once we hit the empty nest stage, we took the plunge with Italy in ’17 and loved it. My wife teaches, so summer is hot in Europe. On the other hand, shut up! You’re in Italy. We have since been to Scotland and Ireland in ’19; Germany and Prague in ’22; Spain and Portugal in ’23; Iceland in ’24; and England last summer. This year, Ireland. Potentially while you’re reading this.

Thanks for stopping by. I intend to keep these posts/articles short as we all have other places to be and only so much time in the day. This summer, I will begin working on book 7 which will be a return to my vampires. I will do my best to keep you coming back for more.

We’ll talk soon. 

What Are You Reading?

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts.

Believe it or not, I'm not one of those who needs to be the center of attention. I don't need to hear myself talk. I realize that since I came back to blogging a month ago that it has been me, me, me, all the time. With that in mind, let's talk about authors other than myself. At least for today... wink.

In the past few years I have been reading a ton, as you will soon see! When I was a kid - teens and early twenties, it was pretty much all horror. I'm still easily tempted by a good ghost story; however, these days, I find myself shying away from anything gratuitous. I'm heavy into thrillers, suspense and mysteries. It was also much later that I began to make a conscious effort to reach for the classics. I will also take a break, give myself a brain cleanse by reading something different. It could be a romance or drama or a biography. So, I will plan to share this journey perhaps every couple of months.

According to Goodreads, in '22, I only managed to read 25 books.

In '23, that number jumped to 52 books.

In '24, 68 books.

Last year, 95 books. So far, at the time of this writing, I'm at 46. We'll see what happens when I start writing my next novel later this summer. I imagine reading will slow down, but we'll see.

Like most of us, I cut my teeth on Uncle Stevie. Recently, however, and partly because I hadn't been reading at all for a long time, I came back to him late 2023 with Mr. Mercedes. I was floored! I swallowed that series whole. This past February, I came back for more with the books featuring Holly Gibney. So good! I inhaled those too, between February 1st and 13th. All four.

Nobody pays me to be a critic. If I do not like a book, I may very well walk away and say nothing. There's enough negativity in this world without me adding to it. Sometimes, it happens with authors I have met online. There's a couple recently that readers had raved over their books, but I did not like them at all. Newcomer Alison Lyle is NOT one of them. This talented author has been rapid-fire publishing one after another in the past year or so, but they have all been quality writing with twists and turns you often will be surprised by. Her latest is no exception. If you like those twisty reads, check her out.

I finally took the plunge to see just what all of the hype was about with Wuthering Heights. I'm afraid I still don't know. My problem isn't that the book is mostly mean. I guess it is that they spin it like some great love story when it seemed to me to be anything but. It was also written a very long time ago, so I felt like I needed a dictionary on nearly every page. Now, I will say that there is a ghost of something there; almost a feeling that I could understand if I try again at some point in the future. I think I will. On the other hand, soon after reading that, I jumped over to The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro. That one I really enjoyed. No chase scenes. No explosions. No blood spilt. Just quality writing.

Sometimes I notice a book like it's stalking me. It's in every window. Every Shelf. Every add. There it is again on the floor between men's pants and belts. Kidding of course, but you get the picture. Most times, like now, I hate myself for waiting so long. In 2024, it was Where the Crawdads Sing. I saw it everywhere, but never read it. Until I did. I loved that book and didn't stop talking about it for weeks. Last year, it was The God of the Woods by Liz Moore. This year, it was The Butterfly Garden. I was blown away by that one and recently read book 2. 

Another one that stalked me for a while was The Housemaid. This one was funny because I was not enjoying myself at all for the first third of that book. It felt like when a character is snooping around someone's bedroom or office on tv and you just know they are going to get caught - and you find yourself squirming. I was squirming and second-guessing myself dreadfully on that one until that twist came and my head was blown! Wait! What? Once I got to that point and I realized the author had played me masterfully, I happily raced through it. I'm looking forward to more. 

  

Oh, Joe Hill! I guess we shouldn't be shocked at the quality of the writing or the imagination. What stories did that kid's dad read to him? He may not call himself Mr. King, but he definitely is one. I haven't loved everything I have read from him, but they are always one helluva ride. I thought Horns was fantastic, especially the humor. I don't have that much hair left, but the lady who cuts what I do have, strongly recommended King Sorrow as one of her favorites. She wasn't wrong. It's a long book, but I did enjoy that one week this past April.

I should tell you that for the first time in my life I DNF'd a book. I won't tell you what it was. Prior to that one, I would skim on my trusty Kindle just to at least get to the end to see what happened. This time, facing a long Memorial Day weekend, I decided I was not going to skim through the last two days - wasting them, when I wasn't enjoying myself. So, I quit and found something far more enjoyable. Does this mean I'm growing?

Before we get to some honorable mentions, I found myself pleasantly surprised by someone I had never heard of. I happened to scroll by author Christopher Swann's Substack account and noticed he had a sale going on that particular week. I looked up A Fire in the Night and thought it sounded interesting, so I replied that he had talked me into it. This was last month. A week or so later, I opened it and killed it in two days. Wow! The main character felt a bit to me like Tom Hank's movie version of Robert Langdon with Liam Neeson's special set of skills from the film Taken. He's not exactly Jason Bourne, but he can kick some ass when forced to. Not only that, I thoroughly enjoyed the interplay between the main character and his niece. Highly recommend.

Okay. I also highly enjoyed the following:

Pilate's Key & Pilate's Ghost in the J. Alexander John Pilate series. 

The Perfect Marriage and The Perfect Divorce by Jeneva Rose. What's not to love about those bleeding book covers? Am I right?

The Gospel According to Luke by Toto Guitarist Steve Lukather. That cat literally played on everybody's record back in the day. And how about that book title?

Asteroid Outpost: Nick Walker UF Marshall #1. I don't usually read science fiction, but this is that without monsters, and the dialogue is so very good.

Jenny Cooper Has A Secret by Joy Fielding. Both gripping and hilarious.

The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins. I didn't even recognize who that author was. I had forgotten about hearing his name while reading Drood by Dan Simmons, the fictionalized account of the last five years in the life of Charles Dickens and his unfinished novel as told from the Collins' viewpoint. Shame on me because I still own that paperback copy and should have known this.

Coffin Moon by Keith Rosson.

Okay, enough of that. I need to get back to the book I'm currently reading.

We'll talk soon
 

   

There Will Be Blood

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts.

My first attempt at a full length novel was intended to be a crime thriller. I do some basic outlining now; however, back then, in my early twenties, I believe I was a full on pantser. That might explain how the following came to be. I had two small town police officers that were chatting on a street corner well after midnight. They had just finished checking that all of the doors were locked on main street. Suddenly, our villain stepped from the shadows and ended up being a vampire. Nobody was more shocked than me.

[Please allow me to introduce you to the series. I have edited some content for time constraints.]

Nathaniel knows the Bible front to back, and knows there is no place in God’s kingdom for the undead. The woman and her infant children he saves from another vampire is not so sure that he can’t be used for good. This starts him on a journey of self-discovery.

“He is the great beast,” Nathaniel said. “There is nothing that he is incapable of.”

Vincent appeared to survey the young dead woman within his grasp as if admiring his handiwork. With a sigh, he tossed her aside and began to slap his hands together as if intending to clean them.

“Name calling,” Vincent said. “Just call me father and let us be done with it, once and for all.”

“Father?” Michael asked.

“Certainly,” Vincent answered, never taking his eyes from his alleged son. “Did he not tell you? I am his father. I have raised him since he was a boy.”

Even back then, I thought we needed more vampire stories like a hole in the head. Little did I know that there would continue to be an insatiable hunger for them. Once I had committed to tell that story, I embraced the crossover or edgy angle. It wasn’t going to be Christian fiction. There would be blood. Lots of it.

“I must go,” he said.

“Not before I speak with you,” she began. “I want you to know that you did a wonderful thing here.”

“I caused all of this.”

Barbara practically leapt out of her chair. “Don’t you dare go there with me! This house is full right now with people who owe you their very lives! Their very lives! God brought both Vincent and you into our lives. He turned Vincent’s evil into good. The Bible says that.”

“Yes, I know,” Nathaniel acknowledged. “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”

Barbara was amazed. “So how can you know the scriptures and not believe?”

“Oh, I believe. I believe that I am working outside of God.”

“Still?” she pleaded, grabbing him by the arms. “After all of this, you still believe that God doesn’t know you? That He has no use for you? That He did not use you this week for good?”

Heaven and Hell have been at war from the beginning.

Now they’re using vampires.

Book 2: Flash Point.

Outside the sanctuary, they found another. They had to slide it out of their way in order to open the door. When they did, they found precisely what they had expected to find. The place was filled with rolled up charred remains. In the light of the sanctuary, the smoke and heat could be seen wafting off.

“My God!” Luis whispered.

“No, it isn’t.”

At the front of the sanctuary was a figure. At first glance, he appeared to be a tall man with a medium build, although he stood with his back to them, his hands clasped behind him. “I know you’re not referring to me,” he laughed. “But I appreciate the sentiment.”

The man wore slacks and a dress jacket. His dark hair was slicked back. The candlelight reflected off gold jewelry on several fingers as well as his left wrist.

“You know,” he continued, but still didn’t turn around to face them. “There’s something about this architecture that I’ve always liked. I don’t know what it is. I guess it’s familiar.”

“Whatever happens,” Nathaniel instructed. “Do not speak.”

Luis turned as if to ask why, but Nathaniel gave him a sharp look. He turned back just as the figure before them turned. He was still holding his hands behind his back.

“That’s right, dear Luis. Don’t speak. Truth be told, none of your brothers said anything either, and it didn’t save them. Who’s to say what may happen?”

“Just what is it that you want, Devil?” Nathaniel asked.

The Devil straightened up his posture. “I really don’t like that name,” he said. “I prefer Satan. You may call me that.”

The Devil is alive and well, and none too pleased that one of his vampires seeks God.

Book 3: Infernal.

Satan marched into the room. “Sit,” he said to the vampires who lurked closest to him. When they didn’t, he paused and stared back at them. “Sit or I shall remove your legs. Trust me when I say that I can do this in a great many ways. You no doubt have heard I am not a man of my word, but you will be alive to endure it. I can promise you.”

The four turned and glanced at Josef who nodded silently. All in the room sat except Josef. Marie stood her ground.

“Why are you here?” Josef asked her.

“I was invited,” she replied, glancing at Satan. “I didn’t feel it was an invitation I could decline.”

“Oh, please,” Satan said. “They were quite finished, and very lucky that I allowed them to do so. Such grand words, Josef!”

“We’re supposed to believe that you’re the Devil?” Josef asked.

“Yes, Josef,” he said, non-plussed. “I am he.”

The Elder-General gritted his teeth. “I’m having a difficult time believing this,” he added.

“Said a vampire,” he said sarcastically. “I could show you my true nature, but it isn’t pretty. I could kill every living thing in this board room with my will alone; however, I have need of you, so I won’t.”

Josef and the Devil held eye contact.

“What need do you have of us?” he finally spoke.

“Are you familiar with a vampire named Nathaniel?”

“I am familiar with many vampires by that name,” Josef replied. “Felipe?”

Immediately, Felipe clicked open a database and began typing away. There were a great many references with that name. Some deceased. The data went all the way back to before the printed word. This was the cyber version of original material, which had been researched and compiled well before computers.

Satan waited.

“I have a Nathaniel who was involved in the deaths of several other vampires?” Felipe offered.

“Bingo,” Satan said. He rubbed his face and tapped his forehead. “It is curious you know of this, yet allowed him to live. I thought vampires killing vampires was an offense punishable by death? Perhaps I have been misled.”

“Forgive me, my brother,” Marie said, leaning into Josef. “But perhaps as the evidence suggests, the great Satan has already failed in this personal vendetta of his.”

“Until the sky rolls back like a scroll. I have failed nothing,” Satan said.

This summer, I will begin working on the 4th installment in the Dance on Fire series. All of the traveling that my wife and I have been doing since Infernal was released shall come into play. And my most recent release will also have something to do with what happens. Both this series and that book use my hometown of Kingsburg, California as the main setting. Truth be told, it was secretly book 3.5 in the series. I just didn’t tell anyone. I wanted it to be a surprise for my local fans.

One of these days I’m really going to have to explain why Kingsburg is so haunted.

We’ll talk soon.

Photographs: An Origin Story

 

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts.

I once wrote a terrible novella. Perhaps "terrible" isn't the appropriate word. Immature? Yes. Green? Wet behind the proverbial ears? Absolutely. At least that's my view from 40,000 feet. Or, more specifically, 40 years later, give or take.

It had horrible demon-like creatures attempting to worm their way into our world. They were coming in through this middle-aged woman's expansive house. Think: Beverly Hills. They were trying to scare her off, so they could bring the rest of their "people" through. It will never see the light of day. You're welcome.

But it had that character, and she haunted me. She was a burnout drunk. She had nothing to care about. I remember when we first met her, she stepped out of the house wearing nothing but a faded old nightgown in the late morning. She marched straight into the pool and kept walking until the water engulfed her. When she didn't drown, she merely climbed out the other side, removed the nightgown, dropped it onto the ground and simply went back dripping wet and naked into the house. I don't want to describe her too much because it will color what became of her. What you need to understand is she needed to be rescued from that story. Not the exact character she was then, but the spirit of her. What could have possibly happened to her to make her so forlorn? I had to discover her secrets... 

Eventually, I began to write my first novel, Dance on Fire. It ended up being a vampire novel (More on that at a later time). I set it down and walked away. There were too many more important things to do (marriage, career, children). I also didn't have the discipline. Nearly twenty years later, I finally completed it. The sequel soon followed. I gave myself a much needed break from my vampires and wrote something completely different. It was a paranormal ghost story. That book came out very well and, refreshed, I raced back to my vampires. I wrote book 3 in that series.

It was at that point that the woman began to call out to me. She still needed to be rescued. So I sat down and did just that...

In 1956, film actress Allison Bell abandoned the glamor of Hollywood for Fresno, California, and an idyllic new life.

In 1959, she disappeared altogether.

Nearly sixty years later, real estate agent Joanna Johnson steps unsuspectingly into the old Belle House and a story long forgotten. A devastating personal event opens a hidden door into the actress's world, and a series of long-lost photographs begin to reveal secrets thought buried.

What happened to Allison?

What happens to Joanna when she finds out?

When I stand in front of people at events, that's the book that they buy. It's everyone's favorite. Truth be told, it's probably my favorite too. It's the one book that's nearly broken even, thanks to local sales.

I self published all of my novels. But Photographs? I actually queried that one for two years. That's how strongly I felt - feel - about it. If I was in my twenties, I might still be querying it. However, I was already in my fifties. I had wasted nearly twenty years not writing. After that many rejections, I wasn't about to waste any more time. I just published it myself spring 2020. It was released about the same time as the virus-that-must-not-be-named. It was like being kicked in the teeth, and it broke a part of me. I had this amazing book and couldn't do what I wanted to do to promote it. To this day, outside of the valley where I live, few have yet to find Photographs. I still hold out hope that they will. 

“Are you the agent?” the man asked.

“I am.”

“What did you need?”

“Are you Director Eggars?”

“Yes,” he answered, but his expression never softened. He wasn’t angry, but far from friendly. “What did you need?”

“I apologize for bothering you.”

“Ma’am,” he said. “I’m giving you one last shot at this, and then I’m going to walk away.”

“I’m sorry,” she whispered, her voice failing her. “It’s about the house.”

“So I heard. What’s wrong with it?”

“Nothing,” she replied. 

“Good. I’m glad to hear it.” He removed his hands from his pockets and began to move. “Have a nice day.”

“Wait!” Joanna found her voice. She removed her key from the ignition and opened her door.

“Please don’t get out,” the director held up his hands to stop her. Joanna paused. Her door was open, and she had one leg out of the car. “I’m happy to hear there’s nothing wrong with the house. We’ve moved away and moved on. There’s nothing more that I want to hear about that place.”

“Why?”

He ran his fingers through his thick auburn hair in frustration before responding. “Ma’am,” he began. “You seem like a nice lady, and I don’t want to be mean. Please just go away. I don’t want to talk about that God-damned house.”

Damned? Not simply damn?

“Something happened,” she said. “Didn’t it?”

The director said nothing. He just stared at her. Joanna stared back, but made no move to get out of the car or right back in. The director once again placed his hands inside his pockets. 

That voice in her head was not only accusing her but was condemning her now as well. She took a deep breath, unsure of her next move.

The director shook his head slowly and repeatedly as if something were dawning on him. “Please don’t tell me you ended up in that pool!”

Joanna felt as if he had slapped her. “How did you know that?” she whispered.

The director approached her door. Joanna found herself retreating back inside and closing her door between them. He set his hands there upon her door and leaned close. “Get away from there,” he said. “It would have killed my wife if I hadn’t heard a splash and pulled her out. I don’t know who saved you, but do yourself a favor, Miss Johnson, and don’t ever fucking go back there. All she did was prune the bushes and stare at that damned pool.” He took Joanna’s hand and cradled it gently in both of his. “Please! “I’m begging you. Don’t ever go back.”

One night, two extraordinary women meet. Both carry broken hearts and one has been dead sixty years. Clues are revealed in a series of long-lost Photographs.

 

 

    

 

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts.

So, I interacted with someone on Substack this week concerning their spouse reading and re-reading their WIPs. I congratulated this person, but was a bit jealous. You see, my wife suffers enough nightmares on her own without needing help from me. She did read one of my novels once.

Once.

I have six now. Number seven is currently in the gestation period. More on that on a later post.

Why do I do it, you may ask? Write horror? I see it on the upturned faces I sometimes meet at book events or at my table out front of a local store where my books can be found. Good question. I enjoy telling people that I go to church every Sunday hoping never to encounter some of the things I write about. So why then?

Looking back, I recall having very little interest in reading. Everything people wanted me to read felt like a punishment, as it does when young. Then, in my early teens, I discovered rock music, and eventually heavy metal. We call that Classic Rock now. And sometimes elevator music! laughs I had a measure of freedom that I had never had before, and that music and those bands were captivating. Taboo, perhaps. I realized later that those bands used dark imagery mostly to be noticed. And get girls. Very few, if any, were actually into the dark stuff they sang about and projected. Hell, Alice Cooper and Blackie Lawless are openly Christian now, last I heard.

It was at this time that I was suddenly old enough to watch spooky films. Not necessarily horror yet, but getting there.

And then, I found scary books.

And then something clicked.

The Amityville Horror. Jaws. Close Encounters of the Third Kind. Headhunter. Salem’s Lot. The Great and Secret Show. Interview With A Vampire.

You wanted me to read, so I’m reading now. Aren’t you happy?

Soon, I began dabbling writing my own fiction. I did buy an electric guitar. I still have it, but I was too old and distracted to pursue it to the level it needed. I attempted to write my own song lyrics then too. However, the size was stifling. I needed more room. Writing, I found, I could do. Of course, everything was garbage. But it was a start.

It took me twenty years to write that first novel, Dance on Fire. It’s my series that explores whether a vampire can be used for good. It isn’t Christian fiction. There will be blood. lots of it. I dreamt during those two decades of seeing my name on the spine of a book. I never thought it would ever happen. Long story short, I just didn‘t have the time (marriage, career, children) and, more importantly, the needed discipline. If I didn’t have three hours to write, I threw a fit. It wasn’t until I turned thirty-eight that I realized the regret that I was facing if I never dusted off that manuscript and completed it. Suddenly, if I had forty-five minutes, I got busy writing!

Right there is the lesson from the text, as the preachers say. Have no regrets, my friends.

After I followed the pretty girl to her church, as we do, I took a step back. Perhaps I’m not supposed to be - what’s the word I used earlier? Dabbling? Perhaps I’m not supposed to be writing about these dark subjects. I even quit for a while and wrote about Godly subjects. It didn’t last very long. I missed the dark stuff. In the end, I realized something. I liked riding roller coasters. It wasn’t a lifestyle. You got on one, you got off. So, here I am, trying the next thing to get noticed out there in a sea of books. Substack. Blogging again after eleven years. [Author’s note: please don’t tell my eldest son what I just said about roller coasters. He’s been trying to get me back on those.]

I would rather try and fail, then give up and make it a certainty.

That’s another lesson from the text.

Lastly, on those rare occasions that my wife has a nightmare. I listen intently and remorsefully, holding a sad expression on my face like one of those handheld masquerade masks. When she’s done, I ask, dramatically exasperated: “Did you write it down?” Grins

We’ll talk soon.

Greetings, Fire Enthusiasts. 

First things first. I have no plans to inundate people who have chosen to put a measure of faith or interest in me and my writing. You have other places to be - lots of competition for your time, and I get that. Me too. At the moment, I plan to make short posts on Substack a couple times a month, leave notes daily and spend a lot of time engaging in the community.

Here's just a few things to get to know me:

1. It took twenty years to write my first novel Dance on Fire. The title was meant to convey that we all react differently if caught on fire. There's that initial moment of panic and then what...? With vampires, there's going to be a lot of drama and the characters are going to do different things. Fact: I hated that title and had every intention to change it. Twenty years later, it could be nothing else. Whoops!

2. Since that first novel became the "Dance on Fire" series, pretty much all of my socials carry the moniker: dance author. Funny thing, I'm an old headbanger from the 80's. Much to my wife's chagrin, I don't know anything about dancing. It's sad, I know. On those rare occasions where there is requisite dancing, she knows that she needs to liquor me up first!

3.  My favorite novel is not horror or paranormal at all. It's Beach Music by Pat Conroy. What...? The Prince of Tides guy? I know! Prior to being exposed to it by a sister in law, the answer would have been something from Uncle Stevie, Mr. Barker or Headhunter by Michael Slade. You're just going to have to trust me on this. When she broached the subject, I asked sarcastically, "Sis, does anybody die in the first chapter?" She replied, "As a matter of fact. Yes." Sadly, Mr. Conroy is gone now, but the art lives on. My oldest son found me a signed First Edition which is dear to me.

I have been attending small shows locally, serving as Secretary with the (California) Central Valley Fiction Writers Group and gearing up to start working on the next thing, Dance on Fire 4. It's not actually titled that. Haven't learned my lesson, have I? *laughs* No, it actually does have a real title, but I'm way too early to be making any reveals.

My wife and I have discovered a love of travel since I was regularly blogging. We started with Italy in 2017 and have set foot in twelve countries now. We're heading back to Ireland next, so if I disappear for a couple of weeks in mid June, you'll know why. I probably won't do much with the WIP until we get back.

Okay, this is supposed to be about the writing, so I will share a sample from my most recent release.

In The Color of Sound, a teenage girl loses the scales over her eyes and can now see both the angels and demons that surround us. The small demons are scarred and burnt-looking. You will see what she calls them - something that even I, the author, have been doing anytime an extension cord gets hung up in my yard or any other irritating thing occurs that little unseen beings might have been responsible for. In this scene, Jewel has earlier interfered as a demon berated an older boy in one of her classes. She doesn't know him. You'll see she refers to him as Football Player. Her conduct in class had taken both the boy and the demon by surprise, so he comes looking for her at break. Here, we are at the tail end of the scene. My apologies for the language.

"There’s a voice telling you these things. I’ve heard it. I had one, too.”
He tenses.
“It told me horrible things to keep me down,” she continues. “It’s gone now, but you have one. It’s holding you back. ‘How in the world did you ever make Captain,’ it said to you. ‘I’m thinking you really should eat your dad’s Winchester.’ I forget what model number.”
He sits back, too. His face twists, then softens again. “1300,” he says. “It’s in my closet now. He hasn’t missed it. How did you…?”
“I told you how,” she replies and quickly leans forward. Before she can stop herself, she finds that she has taken his hands into hers. He looks down at them. She tugs them one good time and he looks back up at her. “Don’t do it! ‘Only hurts for a second’ is bullshit! It hurts everyone who knows you forever!”
The bell rings. Break is over.
More blood drains from his face, if that is possible. His expresion twists up again and he quickly yanks his hands free and stands.
I told you, the more rational side of her brain thinks. She sits back away from the table.
Football Player says nothing further. He spins and storms away.
If he regrets walking away or looks back at her even once, she never sees it.
The thing that has been torturing him was standing behind him the entire time. He stands near the bench seat that Football Player has just vacated. The thing glares at her.
“Pretty proud of yourself, aren’t you?” he growls.
Jewel only stares.
“This isn’t over, you know,” he says. “He doesn’t believe you… I won’t let him.”
Jewel exhales loudly. “Yes, he does.”
The thing just shakes his head.
Jewel unexpectedly smiles. “Yes, he does,” she says, feeling strangely empowered. “He’s going to put that gun right back where he found it. He’s going to do that today!”
The thing smiles back at her-the same toothy grin he gave her in class. “No, he isn’t,” The thing keeps dramatically shaking his creepy head before slowly backing away. “Fuck you, Jewel, but he isn’t going to do that.”
“Fuck you right back, you little barbecued bastard.”
The thing laughs.

That's all for now.

We'll talk soon.